4 days/ working through anxiety with cognitive behavioral therapy

From about nine days until surgery to yesterday I was having kind of a hard time dealing with my anxiety.

I had made a video about some of the anxiety that I was feeling about the surgery and I started remembering my cognitive behavioral therapy and decided to print out a new workbook and start working through the modules.

I was really astounded when I got done working through the thought process module. I have been talking about fear of dying and fear of complications but as I work through the module it became apparent what I'm really afraid of is giving up foods that I have relied upon for comfort.

Cloaking that fear in a fear of death, allows me to express it to my family in a way that may cause them to say maybe you shouldn't have the surgery.

And that's what the me wants who doesn't want to have to give up food. She wants somebody else to say don't do it.

I know this is going to be hard and life changing but I'm going through it darn it all. And I'm going to be here afterwards.

I'll have to find new coping mechanisms, but that's what the cognitive behavioral therapy will really help with. I'm glad I have this tool because it is an excellent way to work through strong feelings.