Able to Leap to Conclusions at a single thought!
Able to keep magnifying situations to an impossible conclusion!
Yesterday was a tough day. The kids had been off of school for five days and then Charlie, our son who has autism, twisted his ankle and we ended up in the ER for three hours, getting an x-ray.
To relax, I went for a swim at the hotel pool that I swim at every day and Creepy Guy was there. I think he was. Creepy Guy is a guy who was making deep conversation with my nine year old daughter in the pool. Without going into a long drawn out story, I have decided to change my fitness membership to a club that has a pool and leaving this hotel for good.
SO with all of these thoughts in my head, and having watched The Walking Dead last Sunday, I had nightmares that were horrific. I mean, these are the kind of nightmares where I am afraid to go back to sleep at 3 am.
I had been worried about whether when I go to see my surgeon on Monday, whether they would just schedule me in, now that I have been diagnosed with sleep apnea. But I just now called the doctor's office and they said that I would still be going through the rest of the four months of dieting. That reassures me, because I believe I have more to work through mentally before I do this.
I am trying to settle myself down and relax. It's just hard when there is so much at stake and I keep asking myself:
Am I really unable to do this on my own?
Am I really this fat? - I don't really feel that fat, but apparently I am. I see it, but there is a subtle disconnect.
Ug. Well, I have to go get my driver's license renewed today and return library books. I could also do some housework first, which I should do. I am just being lazy woman today.
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