First Night of CPAP

1. Set up the machine, take two xanax, rather than one, get in bed, strap in.
2. wake up at 11;38 surprised that it's not morning because I am wide awake.
3. Rearrange mask, tighten straps. Back to sleep.
4. 12:30. Mouth is dry. Can't drink water. Take mask off, drink, spill cold water down my front.
5. 12:38 have to pee.
6. 12:45. Mask is whistling, adjust. Mask still whistling. Adjust again. Try to sleep.
7. 2:30 Apparently sleeping on my back is the only thing that works. I hate back sleeping.
8. Some time later: Mask is dripping condensation onto my face.
9. Still dripping. Turn down humidifier.
10. Still dripping. 
11. Have to pee. Detach hose and have three blessed minutes of room air.
12. Reattach mask, get blasted by gale force winds. Water flies out of hose and wets my face.
13. 3 am. Is is seriously only 3 am? Fuck.
14. More whistling. Screw it. More rain on my face. Turn on my side and whistle my way to sleep.
15. 5:38 Did I seriously get this thing to help me sleep?
16. 6:00 Why does my husband set an alarm for which he never wakes up, but which wakes me up every morning? How shall he die?
17. 6:15 my alarm goes off. Thank God. I turn off the machine and release myself from it's bondage. 

I am going to learn how to deal with this machine. I swear I will.

Update - same day:  I decided not to give into one bad night and put the mask back on and went back to sleep and napped for an hour. It was much better. I could feel myself stopping breathing though and I would wake up. But each time I was able to go back to sleep until I woke up naturally an hour later. I had a restful dream, so that was good.

THERE ARE TWO VIDEOS ABOUT THIS ON MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgvSAugTmyRTBm_ThLQurJg/videos