Working on some short term goals.

Here are the goals that I am working on right now, prior to my surgery:

• Decaffeinating myself. Did you know Green Mountain makes a Haff-Caff? Yes. After a week or so, I will take that down and do a, what? Quarter-Caff?   I fear the caffeine headache, but worse would be to have that bitch the day after surgery.

•  Continuing to lose on the pre-surgery diet. I need to lose or at least not gain with every visit. Next month is my last one!! YAY! Unless I gain. Then I go to hell forever.

Maybe Hell wouldn't be that bad? He's cute, right?

•  Getting my CPAP changed to a BI-PAP. I am swallowing air, probably from too much pressure, so they will be changing my machine.

•  Continuing to swim every day. It is so fucking cold right now. It's really hard to get myself up for going outside and dragging all of my crap to the pool. The locker room and pool area are simply freezing. It's all glassed in and it's just a nightmare. But most of the time, I swim alone, so there are perks. I just keep repeating to myself, "I always feel better after I swim." And it's true. I want to go into this surgery in the best physical shape that I can possibly be in.

• Not scaring myself by googling horrible things like, "VSG Complications" or "Weight Loss Surgery Horror Stories". Enough of that already. I need to start googling success stories. No, there is no long-term track record for the sleeve, but I know enough people who have been there and done it that I know what to expect.

 So, that's about it. Trying to get through these last ten or so weeks without going mad. My mind has been so focused on this for so long. And before the sleeve journey, I was pretty heavily focused on my diverticulitis.

You know, strangely enough (knock on wood), I have not had a flare of diverticulitis since I started this diet. I am trying to be very careful of what I eat, but I have done pretty well. I am also getting much better at spotting flares before they become flares. And I take a stool softener every day now, as per my GI guy. Constipation is the enemy to those of us with gut potholes.

No shit, Sherlock, something is helping. And I have high hopes that after the surgery, my diverticulosis will continue to improve, although only a bowel resection will really put it into remission.